Lurving you always Dee Dee

 Day 21

Woke up with a dream of you, your cheek looks as though it has a hole and its getting bigger.

But I told you to be patient as I'm fetching you to the vet. You were back to your golden color and still smiling despite the pain.

I think its the process that's happening to you now on under the ground. 

Last night when I came home, I saw the egg biscuits you used to eat. Half eaten and its still crunchy. It couldn't be some thing we've left for months because bit would get all soiled by then.
Could it be you?

Deep down I truly believe in your presence around home. Some nights I could hear your bells and feel hairs rubbing my legs and your never ending trip to my dreams.

I really wish you have longer time with us;
its so hard to say good bye unprepared as you're only 10.

As I was servicing my car today, I saw Rosie's pet place across the road.
I've always enjoy visiting pet shops and the main reason is to get you treats/ raw hides and food.
Without courage; I stood across the road staring & asking myself
"What am I to do inside there?"
"Wanted to buy treats for you but you're no longer able to savor it"
"Wanted to buy treats for who?"

I don't even have a dog now; I feel so empty
I don't have you with me anymore.

I really wanted to have you with me forever;
 thus I'm going to have you embedded in my skin.

That way you'll always be with me as I've always been everything to you.
Even when you died; you choosed to die beside me.
I miss you. I wanted to do so much more with you.
Above it all;

I wanted to thank you for loving me.