Day 18
Went to town today and got some roses and rose petals to decorate Dee Dee's resting place.
I once vowed to give him the best be it when he is alive or not; I will continue doing so he would smell good just like the fragrant rose petals.
A coliq got me some durians; something both me & Dee Dee used to love eating. Its been a while since I had them.
Mum bought some of these too because its Dumpling Festival today; something where I always share the pork with Dee Dee. I feel thankful having mum although I seldom spoke of it. I believe she too is still as hurt as I am because she too would save her chicken/ fishes for Dee Dee while she consumes the white rice only. Some thing both mother & daughter enjoy doing.
Will be going to movies alone later. LG kept asking me why can't I wait for him and spend time with him instead of leaving home early. Truth is I need time for myself to reflect & digest what has happened. Dealing with a loss is not something you can get over in a day or two.
But I was glad that I've found an online pet loss support group and read alot about people like me trying to cope with the loss. Even read one whose dog is to be put to sleep tonight due to sickness.
Sad and painful.
But I was glad that I've found an online pet loss support group and read alot about people like me trying to cope with the loss. Even read one whose dog is to be put to sleep tonight due to sickness.
Sad and painful.
Like Rayney said I have changed.
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