Dear Dee Dee,

The flowers cheh cheh bought before going to KL is drying up after more than a week. 

Efforts to look for you in Thailand proves futile, all the dogs look sickly and none has anything which can make me fall like I see you. 

Cheh cheh & kor kor went to see another pom today and although she is cute, but I just felt it wasn't you.

I believe you're still somewhere waiting for cheh cheh to take you home...I hope you could give me a sign to lead me to you. 

As much as people say they will meet their lovers in afterlife, I want to have you again as my baby after ur previous life. Please tell me you want too..I really miss you very much. 

When Jimmy says Chokdee is sick, I wish you could give me a chance to go to the vet too. I don't mind paying very much if only I could hold you in my hands...

Really love you have a better life now Dee Dee

Cheh cheh miss you...the room is clean now but you;re not around with me.

Its raining, cold and windy...it would be nice if you could be indoors rather than getting yourself wet in the soil.

The rain still hasnt stop, I still cant light candles and lay the chrysanthemums on your resting place. 

Dee... cheh cheh really want to hold you tight and apologise for not being sensitive enough to your sickness.

I love you and still do very much, which makes getting a dog a difficult task. 

I only want to hold you in my arms

Che Che miss you very much!

I believe we are gonna be reunited soon; if all the signs you've given me is right.

Cant wait for the day to come so soon.

I still smile when I see your smiling pictures;

Thanks for all the laughter & joy you've brought into our lives.

Luv u Dee Dee

Dear Dee Dee,

Its gonna be 2 months since you left us. We still miss you as much.

Mummy still lights the candles and I still feed the cat because I think its related to you.

Che Che has been really tired lately. More responsibilities laid on my shoulders;

I don't know if its good or bad but it is a good start for my career.

Really wish you're here to see me doing all these.

I have been coming home early lately - something you really wanted me to do when you're still around.

The guilt is still in my heart and there are many thgs which I still cant forgive myself

Especially to give in easily to someone's advise not to bring you to the vet.

Perhaps you would survive if I did brought you.

I still hate myself for letting you go in pain. I really wish I could hold you in my arms again.

If all the signs you've given me about reincarnation is true, I believe I might be able to see you very soon.

Please guide me to where you are now so I could being you home again.

I believe you're born a pom again.

I believe our destiny did not end so fast...

Somewhere around, I truly believe I will find and be with you again.

I love you Dee Dee....will still buy you the treats even if you won't eat it anymore.

Deeply inside me, I know you still live. 

My life has been very empty without you.

I should and will never be with a man who cannot love my dog as I loved him.

Perhaps if he has been more attentive and love both you & me more, he would understand how important you are to me. 

Yes I will never forget what he degraded you.

Maybe these are tell signs about this relationship. 

Thanks for giving me the courage to make me realise what has been going wrong in my life.

My choice & expectation on others. 

You're too important for me to lose, yet I lost it. 

I seriously do not know what more must I lose to learn to make a choice to love myself more. 

To demand for love which I truly deserve.

Dee Dee,

How are you today? I dreamt of u playing on my laps a few days back.

That you're in pain and refusing to eat.

I hope you're no longer in pain anymore.

Truly believe that we will be reunited very soon...cant wait to have you in my arms again.

I choose to believe you're happier now. 

Cheh Cheh yang yang Dee Dee <3

Its a flower-y day for Dee Dee,

Cheh cheh went to the market today and got you lotsa flowers..hope you like them.

Mum lighted so many candles for you to make those days where we ran out of candles.

Wish you're happy playing with your friends. 

Cheh cheh could still feel you presence sumtimes..mummy too.

Yesterday I was driving around the park and wished you were around so I could bring you to pee at every tree. 

Nevermind, you could run freely now. 

Cheh printed this for you Dee Dee

Dee Dee's fren the greedy cat. 

Dear Dee,

I'm not sure if this is you or not; it has 4 white paws. Plump body like yours and he eats your treats and chewed on your rawhide. I fed him some of your leftover can food. He was just licking the treats like how you did. Toying around with it and staring at me most of the time as I was trying to snap his video. 

If it's really you, I don't mind feeding him everyday or keep him at home. 

Cheh Cheh have a big cry today and was without you by my side. I really miss you Dee Dee and wished you're here with me. All I could do now is hug those plush bears and speak to them like I did to you besides speaking on your resting place; lighting candles to make sure your night are not lonely and dark. 

I saw Che Che's friend's chihuahua who resembles you. Really so adorable. It keeps me questioning now are u a chihuahua/ pom/ spitz mix or what are you? Of coz it doesn't matter much coz what matters is that I love you very much regardless of your breed. 

I believe its going to be soon where we will be reunited again. 

I walked happily to your resting place, pats the soil, lights up the candle, spoke to you and brought some of ur treats for u. 

Although I'm unsure have I accepted ur departure; but one thing I'm sure is I love you yesterday, today, forever - no one can take this bond & love away from us. 

Missing you very much my dearest Dee Dee.

Cheh cheh bought some flowers for you 2 days ago and the stupid snails have started eating the petals. I brought the salt and teach the whole bunch of them a damn lesson for taking away what's urs; just like how I protected you when you're still around. Even though you're gone, I'll keep protecting you and all the memories we shared. 

This is my promise to you.

Sumtimes I wish you could still see me (although I do feel your presence at home every night)